I Might Be Weird on the Internet

Felicia Day. Resident Internet nerd queen, NYT best selling author, accidental entrepreneur with a 4.0 and the fabulous actress who has been kissed by fire. Also my hero/spirit animal.

I’ve been admiring Felicia Day going on 3 years now, and I’m way late to the bandwagon. I somehow missed the initial blow up of “The Guild” on YouTube, I happened to be playing WoW the same time frame she did on the opposite side of the U.S. in ’06/’07 and missed her there, and I fully fell in love with her character Charlie Bradbury on Supernatural, which is where I first experienced her awesomeness. I even watched Buffy the Vampire Slayer from S1E1 and waited eagerly until the last season where I saw her playing one of the many recruited future-slayers. Now I’m almost done reading her book and already considering reading it again to mark up every time she says something I relate to. Which is probably me just coloring the whole book highlighter yellow.

If you’ve gathered from my previous subtle hints, Felicia just released a book about her life and experiences leading up to where she is now as a human functioning in society, called “You’re Never Weird on the Internet (Almost)“. I was so excited when I got my book in the mail, I posted my obligatory selfie and became best friends with Felicia. That’s what it means when she likes your posts, right?

Seriously though
This made my lightyear

The book touches on her experiences with homeschooling, perfectionist qualities, active imagination and introduction/addiction to the gaming world. She talks about her low and high moments, her “firsts” in gaming, love & understanding what it means to be a writer and entrepreneur. There is also no shortage of sarcasm which makes her so much more enjoyable to read.

I am 26, and Felicia is 36, which makes her 10 years “smarter” than me. But it also allows her to write from the perspective of her 27 year old self, which is basically where I’m at now, and of course what does one do when reading about their idols but compare?

Basically since I’ve left college, I’ve been trying to find “myself.” It kills me to say it that way, because it makes me sound like a dirty, stereotypical millennial. I’ve mustered my way into my 3rd job in 4 years since I’ve graduated (which isn’t uncommon in the design field), and I still dream about what I want to be when I grow up. I have a serious struggle with wanting to play video games instead of write my blog posts or water the plants I’ve been fostering all summer. I’m 26, married and have a house, and I seriously don’t know who let this happen. Half of my friends from high school are still in college. I’m ahead of the average, but I don’t feel like I’ve accomplished what I want to yet.

I’d like to be a famous YouTuber/blogger/gamer/online personality. Isn’t that everyone’s dream? No…?

Maybe not. I might be weird. I’ve only just re-imagined my life goals in the past 2 months after being lost for about 12 months. Being in the “who am I?” stage of your life for roughly 2 out of the past 4 years of your post-schooled life is disconcerting. I certainly haven’t gotten the hang of most of my life goals yet, and I would not be surprised in the least if they changed again a few more times. Standard Rhiannon indecision.

My point is that Felicia talks about having a serious gaming addiction in her book around my age; where she has some trouble getting it together, after graduating with perfect grades in college and following it up with her dream of acting in LA.
I might have it a little more together on paper than Felicia does (still debatable), but mentally I am so not where I want to be yet, which is completely on par with her. Both of us at our respective ages have a lot of things we want to accomplish, and I can at least see where she has gotten since then, which only gives me more hope for what I might be able to accomplish too.

She got her fire and drive from the community she surrounded herself with, and I just need to find mine.

Verdict: Her book is amazing and I’m not even done yet, just one more chapter and I’m savoring it. I highly recommend reading it (gamer/geek/nerd or not) because she’s funny and extremely relatable, she’s a good storyteller and has a natural way of breaking up her topics as if she were having a conversation and it was your turn to talk. I think that’s why I’ve had such an easy time putting things into perspective from my point of view.

Have you read the book? Are you also 26 and want to be friends? Maybe even Pen Pals?
Leave me love letters in the comments.

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